As many of you know, we went in to Phoenix Children’s
Hospital for Ali’s cardiac catheterization procedure on Friday. A cath is relatively risk free and it’s
important to have done before heart surgery to make sure there are no
surprises. The procedure involves taking
a thin flexible tube and inserting in through the groin and allowing it to
travel through the heart. The
cardiologist is able to test blood o2 levels, measure pressures and get some
decent pictures of the heart. After the
procedure there is usually some soreness which is treated with Tylenol. Piece
of cake, right? …that’s what I thought too.
The cath procedure was actually flawless, we met with the
cardiologist, Dr. Graziano beforehand and we felt really good about him. He has 30 + years of experience and explained
the procedure very well to us. We met
with the anesthesiologist before hand too and she was also a veteran doc. The entire time Ali was in the care of some
very gifted people.
One of the things that Mark and I always do when we meet new
doctors and nurses is that we explain Alessandra’s personality. She is very particular (which is a nice way
of saying she’s a little cranky-pants).
We don’t let her cry at home. She
has trouble breathing if she cries too hard so we are at her service the moment
she starts to fuss. We know all the
little tricks to calm her down and make her happy. We have it down to a science because that’s
the way it has to be with her. If she
wants to be rocked, then it has to be an upward and downward motion. Never
side-to-side. If she is rocked from
side-to-side she is extremely offended and throws a fit. If she’s hungry, we feed her. No waiting, no sleeping through the
night. But like I said, we have it down
to a science. We know what to do to keep
her happy and most days she won’t even cry at all. Obviously, we can’t protect her from the
doctors. They need to poke at her and
bug her. I always feel better if I know
that the doctors understand my baby. I
want them to know her personality because I feel like it should be an integral
part of any plan. Treat the person, not
the symptoms, right? She’s not just a
baby with a heart anomaly, she’s Ali. She’s the boss.
I had to explain all of that about her personality because
it’s an import part about understanding what happened the other night.
Before her cath she had to be put to sleep with anesthesia
and was intubated. After the procedure,
which lasted about an hour. She was
extubated, carefully weaned off of the anesthesia and given Dexmedetomidine
as a sedative to help her awake slowly.
This works fine for about 90% of the kiddos. The moment the anesthesia started to wear off
Ali was awake and fighting. They doubled
the dose of dex to calm her back down but it did nothing. She was fighting to cry and scream, which
made it difficult for her to breath. Her
o2 was dropping and her vitals reached a dangerous zone. She was put on oxygen and we were called back
to help calm her down. She had an oxygen tube in her nose, an iv line in her
forehead. Her eyes were puffy and her
voice was raspy. She was trying to
scream but her throat was sore from the placement of the tube. My initial instinct was that I wanted all the
stuff off of her. I wanted the tubes out the iv out, I wanted hold her and rock
her and calm her down. But that was way too risky. It was a complete catch 22. She needed those
things to monitor and help her, but those things were pissing her off and was
the source of the problem. She was so
worked up that her o2 saturations dropped into the 30s which is a very
dangerous level. Some more docs were
called in and she was given a dose of morphine.
Might as well have given her water. It did nothing at all. The doctors were so perplexed and kept
repeating that the morphine usually works.
They gave a 2nd dose and to everyone’s astonishment (except
for mine and Mark’s), it again had absolutely no effect. I didn’t take a picture of her, I didn’t have
to, I will never forget, but for those of you that are wondering this is what
she looked like:
Finally they tried a sedative not
normally used on babies because its more for anxiety in combination with some
nitrous oxide and that worked well for her.
She fell asleep and started to stabilize. Her sats still weren’t high enough so she
needed a blood transfusion to help her out.
After the blood things quickly started to get better. She was weaned
down to just Tylenol every couple hours and off the o2.
We were released the next morning and
have been taking it easy at home ever since.
She’s not her normal self yet.
She still hasn’t smiled for me.
She has some extra fluid from the anesthesia and is coughing and
sneezing a lot. She was given a dose of
Lasix at the hospital to help her release some of that fluid build up. She’s not 100% yet, but she’s
comfortable. She’s eating well and
sleeping a lot. Her bruises are pretty
gnarly and she has needle holes everywhere (that’s the downside to having a
chubby baby, it’s too difficult to find her veins for iv placements), but she
is home.
I really want to thank all of you for
your support. I know that we had a lot
of people thinking about us and we felt the love when we needed it the
most. We had a lot of support and warm
thoughts and I am so indebted to you all.
Ali before the procedure :)
Ali this morning :(
Much love,
~Melissa
Melissa, my eyes welled up with tears reading this. You have such a way of articulating the emotion of the situation, all while walking a delicate line between levity and stark hardship.
ReplyDeleteYou are a terrific writer. And more importantly, a terrific mother.
I know little Ali has your inner strength that emerges when she needs to fight & defend herself.
I'm grateful (amazed,actually) you find the time and presence of mind to document this journey so people who love you can be there along with you.
My heart is with you all.
All my love,
BT